Bitter Pill

Tame me? Did you really think you could tame me.

Mold me into some bullshit fantasy-fulfillment for you? Well guess what. It ain't gonna happen.

But I guess you knew that already. How could you not have? I've become a challenge you can't win, and just like a sore loser, you slink away.

Poor you. Didn't get your way this time, did you? Well, I for one am not worried about it. I'm sure you'll find a lovely replacement,

one that you can smoosh down into

whatever it is you want.

Poor you? More like poor her.

The Airing of Grievances

* I absolutely can't stand my poor judge of character. It's only AFTER someone disregards my feelings that I realize what a selfish shit they are. I really need to open my eyes.

* I can't stand it that what I want out of life doesn't match with what I pursue. I've always beend told that I'm too picky, but I think I'm picky about the wrong things.

* I can't stand people who expect things to be handed to them, without having to work for it. And when I don't do what they wan't, there is something wrong with me.

* I can't stand the sheer amount of fake conversations I've had this past year. I'm ready to talk about something real, are you?

* I hate it that guys complain about what women want out of them, and completely disregard the fact that they expect just as much out of us.

* I'm ready for something more out of life. I'm tired of this selfish, singular existance.

* I hate that there were some great guys in my past that I just let slip by. What might have been... oh well.

* I hate when I second guess myself (see above).

* I hate when people underestimate me. And when I don't meet their expectation of... whatever, I'm not worth their time anymore. It's utterly amazing how intimidating a smart woman can be.

There are times when I just want to be alone, dang it. It doesn't mean I'm depressed, or mad, or anything else. I have the ability to just exist without the stimulation of others, and there are times when I enjoy that immensly.

Now let's do the feats of strength, shall we. SERENITY NOW!