That Feeling

That feeling


What do you do with that feeling? That giddy, giggly, act-like-a-little-girl feeling? Does it make sense that it happens every time, every time we talk? That kind of feeling doesnt happen to me very often---especially not on this scale---so I feel at a loss when it does.


Awww, Im just in one of those moods. I know people who say they are sooo happy where they are in life. Not to say Im unhappy, but Im restless. I have always been restless. I think its safe to say Ive been restless since childhood. Always wanting something new; never satisfied with the environment I am in. I do not want to spend the rest of my life restless. It would be nice to finally feel stable--- to have something to come home to, to know that it is real and sure.


I feel like lately my mind is doing that searching thing again. Its a little different now than it has been before, maybe its because Im getting older, growing up. Growing inward, where I feel more in tune with my emotions, what I am truly feeling. Searching--- not exactly sure what for, but its there.


So, back to that feeling. What in the world do I do with it? Do I run away (as usual), do I let it take me over? Do I let myself fall, which by the way I am not good at doing? Really, the only reason to be afraid of heights is the pain that may result from falling. I guess I just want to be sure that someone will be there to catch me. I want to be assured of where I will land.


Because that feeling? That feeling is great, amazing. Its something that I want to feel every day.