Friday, February 01, 2008

I'm diggin' it

February 1, 2008
12:14 am

One big push.... it away
The mere weight of it is crushing
My dreams

Something this big, this oppresive, how do I give it up.. to Him?

It's smothering, yet oddly comforting. Held tightly to myself for so long...
without it I would feel... laid bare... naked, undefended.

Opening up, feeling raw
A blast of wind so feared for the damage it could do.
Frightened more of the possibility than the reality

For what is reality, anyway?
What we see with our eyes, taste with our lips...
Or is it what we know in our hearts.

Isaiah 58:6 (KJV) Is not this fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke?

Dear friend, break every single yoke. Sometimes I fear it may take a lifetime... for me. There is a burden on me so great... I can only pray for God to help me BEGIN to know how to start giving it to Him. I feel as though a mountain has risen up before me... yet this time there is no denying it, no going the long way around, no avoiding the... adventure. I will go straight up, and stand breathless at its peak. Victorious. And smiling.

Dig up those roots, friends.
Start digging.

Dear Lord, This one may take awhile. I pray for patience, for perserverence, I pray for... ultimate peace. I will not give up, for I know you will not, will never give up on me. I owe myself that same courtesy. Thank you for every blessing you have bestowed upon me. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

This morning's devotional: 'They Will See God.'
http://www.christianity.com/devotionals/encouragement/

2 comments:

bill said...

Mandi-
I want you to know that your posts have been so inspiring to me. Sometimes living your life for Christ, and taking up your cross, is not easy. In fact, sometimes it is really hard. But I want you to know that I am cheering you on in your race that Christ has set before you. Just know this, even if you never stand on that mountain here on earth victoriuos, free from all of the things that weigh you down; one day you will stand on the Mountain of God and behold Him. Keep pressing on, stand strong. It is so worth it! I love you- jen

BerryGirl said...

Thank you Jen! I really appreciate your encouragement.

Love ya!
Mandi