Ruins

“So now you’d better stop and rebuild your ruins, for peace and trust can win the day despite all of your losing.” Led Zeppelin

How does anyone do it?

How can someone really think that it’s okay to take whatever pain they’re feeling out on another?

Is it really that fun? Is the act itself worth it? Can any pleasure - derived from actions taken from pain - really be worth the damage inflicted?

It is difficult to trust. It is difficult to let go. Sometimes, it is difficult to see very far past ones self. There are no more excuses. No more pretending that everything is okay.
Because in reality, it is not.

The result is loneliness. Exhaustion from blocking people out. It is literally like an invisible wall, one that can be felt.

That girl is missed. The carefree girl. She knew she was smart, she knew she was lovely. She was loved beyond measure. Still is, but just can’t feel it as much. She enjoys being invisible, it is difficult to break the bubble…

It sucks to be numb.

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And hey, guess what? There is an answer. An answer to anything and everything. An answer to any past wrongs, any injuries that seemed irreparable.

The answer is inside of you, has been there all along. No one can teach it to you. Sure, it can be pointed out, but there is only ONE who can GIVE it to you.

Breathe in, breathe out, just let it happen. If you don’t know it, seek it. If you don’t believe in it, open your mind a little. Open your heart a little. Try to see the world as it is, not as everyone tells you.

God is seeking you out, let Him find you.

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You know, the funny thing about being treated badly is this: you get used to it. You get comfortable with it. If someone treats you the opposite way, treats you well, now THAT is uncomfortable. If something is foreign to you, no matter how good it is, it will make you uneasy. Yep, it’s a funny thing…